I had to add this today.....

I found this on an infertility blog.....

Why we do it in the first place:
The grand essentials of happiness are: something to do, something to love and something to hope for. - Allan K. Chalmers

That Maternal Instinct kicks in:
If you want to build a ship, don't herd people together to collect wood and don't assign them tasks and work, but rather, teach them to long for the endless immensity of the sea. - Antoine De Saint-Exupery

TTC, the first year or two:
Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don't give up. - Anne Lamott

It's just not happening...
Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow them. - Louisa May Alcott

Diagnosis: Infertility
Justice divine has weighted: the doom is clear. All hope renounce, ye lost, who enter here. - Dante Alighieri

Our Fertile Friends:
None who have always been free, can understand the terrible, fascinating power of the hope of freedom, to those who are not free. - Pearl S. Buck

Adventures in ART (Assisted Reproductive Technology):
When the world says, "Give up," Hope whispers, "Try it one more time." - Unknown

The 2 Week Wait:
Hope is the thing with feathers that perches in the soul and sings the tune without the words and never stops at all. - Emily Dickenson

The Positive Beta (or hpt):
Most of the important things in this world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all. - Dale Carnegie

Or the Negative:
We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope - Dr. Martin Luther King Jr.

And whether your journey ends with the joy of holding you precious new baby, or final acceptance and peace that it may never happen:

The Journeys End:
Expect to have hope rekindled. Expect your prayers to be answered in wondrous ways. The dry seasons in life do not last. The spring rains will come again. - Sarah Ban Breathnach


That just describes to a T why I keep on ttc baby#3....I am so blessed with 2 little girls, but my infertility just proves to be a challenge to me....my mind tells me "Dr's say you shouldn't get pg? We'll show them!!". And hope is what hangs at the end of the fishing line in front of me..........

c8, cd43 maybe 12dpo....

My chart is crazy (as usual!) but I think I may have O'd about 12 days ago.....maybe. I took a pg test this morning & it was -, but it wasn't my fmu....so I'll test again tomorrow, if AF doesn't show up! I've been SO crampy & my boobs are hurting.....I'm just ready to move on...pg or not! My best friend since kindergarten called last week to tell me she's pg with baby#3. I'm happy for her, but a little frustrated. They didn't use protection ONCE & she's pg. Good GRIEF!!! We've been ttc#3 for a year now!!! I'm not complaining, it's just a little frustrating. Anyway! If AF (or bfp) comes in the next few days, we'll know the metformin is working!! Happy Valentine's Day!!

P.S. I haven't talked to my mom in a couple of weeks. I just can't handle her right now. Since it's been so long since we've talked she'll try to make me feel guilty about it & I just can't deal with that. So, I'm praying for her daily.

C8, CD31...still waiting!!

Well, life is better. My mom is getting help...not from me (we've always struggled with co-dependency & the Lord is breaking that from my life), but from professionals. I'm learning to trust that the Lord will hold my mom in his hands & care for her so much better than I could ever dream of.
I'm taking metformin now (1700mg/day) & am feeling pretty good. Nothing has changed in the ovulation department, but my acne hasn't been too bad. I figure that's a pretty good sign that the met is helping my hormones be somewhat normal. If I don't get pg this cycle (& I'm really not holding my breath!) I'll be on 100mg of clomid next cycle. I'm really hoping the clomid & the met together will be just the perfect blend! Hopefully I won't feel CrAzY on the clomid!! Last time I went ahead & bought my clomid in anticipation of actually getting to use it, I got pg the cycle before!! I'd really be ok with that happening again!! LOL! I really am ok with not getting pg until our trip to Disney World in September....what a nice souvenir! But then again, another tax deduction next year would be great!! I'm looking forward to what the Lord has in store for our family this year!!
Little Miss is doing really well in school......she's adding & subtracting, reading & writing!! I'm so excited to be her 'teacher' & so proud of both of us for actually succeeding against all the opposition we've had in DH's family & from certain non-friends at church!!! SO THERE!! LOL!! She's also just turned 6! I just have no idea where the time has gone!! She's becoming such a grownup! Waaaaahhhh!!! ;o)
Peanut is learning a lot these days too! She is recognizing colors & shapes & she tries to 'write' letters like her 'Sissy'! She also pretends a lot! It's so cute!!
Darling is doing pretty well. I think he's becoming rather antsy in his current job. The next move up available to him would pull him away from us even more & possibly move us about 4 hours away from where we are now....not too far, but we really want to stay here with family. We'll see what happens....I'm just ready for him to get a raise!! $$$$$ He also shared with me last night that he feels like I ignore his opinions about things. *sigh* I've really been trying hard on so many things for him lately that I feel like one more 'issue' is a little ungrateful on his end. I'll try my best.....actually now that I'm thinking about it....I think this really goes back to what he wants to do with our income tax return....most of it goes to pay for our Disney trip, but the bit that's left over needs to go to a certain few things & he wants to "waste" money on have the carpet professionally cleaned.....I told him NO in no uncertain terms!! We have a steam cleaner, I really don't see a real reason for paying someone else to come do what we do ourselves all the time!! He doesn't pay the bills or do ANYTHING with our money & I'd really appreciate him trusting me on this issue. I'll have to talk with him about it.
On a happier note! I'm really excited about our trip to Disney World.....one more month & Disney will release park hours & I'll really be able to plan!! WooHoo!! Our friends Jon & Jen are coming with us & Jen & I have been working on our individual park touring plans....we don't know what days we'll be in what parks, but at least we aren't twiddling our thumbs!! (Have you figured out that I LOVE planning for Disney World?!!)
Have a great day!! I'd better run! God bless!