To be really honest, I fell into a REALLY deep depression in November. So much so, that I went on antidepressant for 3 months. I'm off of it now, but I still have bad days. I really think it's mostly fertility related. I've really been struggling with not getting pg in the last 3 years that we've been trying. I know I have 2 beautiful girls that, medically speaking, should not even be here....but the heart wants what it wants. I've begged the Lord to take away this deep desire for another child & He hasn't. So I wait. There is a new fertility drug called Femara....similar to Clomid, but women with PCOS usually respond to it MUCH better. We're giving it a try. These cycles will be unmonitored, because we just can't afford to monitor them, but I'm praying that the Lord will use this drug to make my ovaries WORK & quit being lazy!! I'm also back on metformin & taking a handful of natural supplements (which I credit with lessening the bad se of the met!). Peanut (dd#2) will be 5 in September & I can hear my biological clock ticking very loudly these days. I know I will be pg this year.....the Lord has given me peace about it. I'm just ready to see this promise fulfilled!! I love you, Lord!!
Habakkuk 2:3
At the time I have decided, my words will come true. You can trust what I say about the future. It may take a long time, but keep on waiting--
it will happen!
