c6, cd20

Hi. I'm kinda sad tonight. A "friend" of mine emailed me tonight to tell me that she's pregnant. She's one of those friends that only calls or writes when something big happens to 'her'. No matter that big things happen to me too! AARRRGGGHHH!!! I was already feeling a bit depressed about how long ttc#3 is taking....it took longer for DD#2, but this time around feels like an eternity!! That pregnancy announcement email has just made me feel like a failure as a woman. Why is it that so many other women think about being pg & ~*"poof"*~ they are? While I'm trying & waiting & waiting & waiting....just to ovulate. :o( I'm not even going to respond to her email for a few days....I need some time to absorb the info before being polite & excited for her. (Is that bad?) I don't want anyone to misunderstand me....I SO realize how blessed I am to have 2 beautiful daughters...I love them SO much & am SO thankful that the Lord has blessed me with them. But I also know that there is supposed to be one more little person in our family & I'm so ready to have him/her join us. I keep bursting into tears thinking about it. Lord, please let my crazy chart be true & let me be pg!! (my chart says I'm 12dpo today......& it's only cd20.....that in itself would be a miracle if it's true!!) Ok.....I'm wiping away my tears....time to move on.

On a MUCH happier note, my DD#1 will be starting kindergarten on the 6th of September! She will be homeschooled & I'm furiously working this week to get my house whipped into shape, while preparing all her schoolwork & trying to get her little sister to sleep in a toddler bed!! LOL!! Needless to say it is a ZOO around here!! (& to think we want to add a baby to the mix!!) She is SO excited & keeps asking me if we are starting school tomorrow!! I'm really excited & can't wait to get started! We have a weather wheel & a big bright poster calendar that she will put the date on everyday (it will help her learn the days of the week & the months of the year!). She'll have handwriting, phonics, history, science, art, reading & math! Whew! We are going to be busy!!

Ok! That's all my news for now. Thanks for letting me have a little pity party! Have a blessed day!