Christmas spirit.....

I'm having a hard time, this year, finding my Christmas Spirit. You know, that giggly, butterflies-in-your-tummy, Santa's-coming feeling. I'm not exactly sure where I packed it away last year, but I can tell you it's not with the wreaths that we hung on the windows, or the lights we hung on the house.....maybe it's in with our Christmas tree that I will be putting up today! I can't believe that it's after Thanksgiving & we just put lights on the house & are still needing to decorate inside....usually I'm really on top of those things! Well, hopefully I'll find it....I'm planning on reading the Christmas story during my time with the Lord tomorrow & I'll be starting A Christmas Carol soon too.....& my little brother is in A Christmas Carol at his school tomorrow evening (cant' wait to see him act!!)....maybe I'll find it there. If you happen to be unpacking your Christmas things & find it.....would you send it to me?? ;o)

Had to share what Little Miss told me tonight....

I was putting her to bed & took some extra time to just hold her & talk to her. We were talking about her wanting Darling to have a "regular" job...one where he was home on holidays & Sundays & I told her to be sure to pray about it! And that I'd been praying for that for a long time & was sure that God would give her daddy a new job soon. She said she knew that she shouldn't stop praying & did I know what else she prayed about? I said no, what? She said, "I pray all the time for a baby brother.".......(insert me crying here!!) We haven't told either of the girls that we're ttc another baby...I just figured they wouldn't understand it! So, I told her that I would love to have a baby boy & that she should be SURE to keep asking God to send us one! Then she said she'd really like another baby sister too!! LOL!! I told her that maybe she needed to think about having a big family herself when she grew up!! LOL!! Anyway, I HAD to share that! Just warms my heart to know that our whole family wants another baby!!

At least I don't have to worry about using protection....

*sigh* I just sent my parents/siblings off to their own homes after spending Thanksgiving enjoying their company...and I did enjoy it. I was a little sad to pass a second Thanksgiving not pregnant but not too bad.

The title....ahhh, yes. Why is it that people are so thoughtless sometimes? I talked with my "best" friend from childhood a few days ago. She is learning to cope with 3 kids now. She is a fertile myrtle....She got pg with #1 after about 2 months of ttc....she was NOT ttc#2 & had to "get over it being so soon" & she decided not to use protection ONCE when she conceived #3 in January of this year. Ugh. I would never wish infertility on her....don't get me wrong! I wouldn't wish this on my very worst enemy.....but my "friend" actually had the nerve to tell me that maybe I should think about the fact that maybe my weight has something to do with my infertility......UUUUHHHHMMMMM, I wanted to say...."really??? Well, I didn't even realize I was 100 lbs overweight!! I'll start thinking about that right now!!". I mean REALLY? She really thinks I haven't thought that....every day?.....for the last 19 months of ttc???? Sheesh. Then she did it. She actually told me...."Well, at least you don't have to worry about using protection....that must be nice." I could NOT believe she actually said that to me while she was nursing her brand new baby & I was sitting alone in my bathroom with an empty, barren womb. So, I gathered my confused & scattered thoughts & told her that yes, it is nice not to use protection, but that the struggle was in wanting something SO badly & not knowing if it would ever be given. It didn't really hit me until after we had gotten off the phone. That was pretty much the end of our conversation. I just chalked it up to a lack of sleep on her part & am working on forgiving her for being so uncaring. I'm still bitter about it, but I'll get over it. She just does NOT understand infertility. I'm ready for another baby & I've been crying out everyday to the Lord to bless us with one (or twins!) very soon.

I hope you all had a wonderful Thanksgiving! God bless!

Oh, & I wanted to tell my sweet friend Sarah, CONGRATULATIONS!! Her sweet baby girl Clara arrived yesterday & I'm SO happy for them!! Enjoy your girls, hon!

C13, CD21....don't get excited!!

Here's my chart.....It seriously looks like I'm Oing today!! LOL! If I had regular cycles I'd think the same thing, but I was FREEZING when I woke up the morning & didn't have any covers on! So, I really think today's temp was a fluke, but just in case I'll use an OPK this afternoon! You never know! Well, that's about all that's going on in my little world! I'm just cleaning for Thanksgiving! Today is Little Miss' last day of school until after Thanksgiving! YAY! I'm ready for a break. Have a blessed day!

I don't wanna!!!!

LOL!!! I just wanted to share that I don't wanna clean my house!!! LOL!! We're having friends over for dinner & games tomorrow evening & I just don't want to clean!! I'm tired & have the beginnings of a cold & I just want to lay on my couch & watch Christmas movies all day!! Then have my Darling come home from work, snuggle on the couch & make up for lost time in the bedroom (since AF was here for 11 days)!! LOL!! Ahhhh.....but I won't, I'll wash the clothes, sterilize my kitchen, deep clean my living room, tackle both our bathrooms, cook dinner, have school with Little Miss, play a board game with Peanut & get caught up with all the clean laundry sitting on my bed & dresser!! Oh, my! .....but, just for the record, I DON'T WANT TO!!! LOL!!

2 weeks later....

Well, it's 2 weeks after my last entry & I'm FINALLY getting rid of Aunt Flo after 7 days of heavy bleeding. I hope she's cleaning house so a new baby can make it's home there for the next 9 months!! I've never had a period so horrible as this one has been. I'm actually writing this while Darling has the girls at the high school's homecoming game, becuase I'm just too tired to go this year. I went ahead & started taking an iron supplement today....all I can say is that super tampons have been my friend this week & if I don't see another one for 9+ months...I'll be FINE with that!! Hoping & praying that this cycle is semi-normal & ends with a BFP!!

I added a slideshow of our trip to Disney World! Hope y'all enjoy it! It took me a little while to get it put together today, but I haven't felt like doing anything but sitting today. Ok....I'm off to take a HOT bath & read before my brood gets home....Happy Friday & God bless!!

**Edited to say that this period lasted for 11 whole days & was VERY heavy!! I sure hope it's the last time I see "her" again for 9 months!!