YAY!!

I just got my letter from my Dr's office and I have 3 documentation requirements before they will submit my request for approval.

1. Psychiatric evaluation
2. One-time diet consultation
3. A pre-operative sleep study

Does anyone know how much these things will cost me?? I'm really excited that this is all they need! Pretty simple! I won't be able to do these things until January (Christmas is taking all our extra $$), but I'm so excited that it seems to be pretty simple!! WooHoo!!!!

Attended my first seminar last night!

The seminar last night was GREAT! I really enjoyed hearing Dr. Nick talk about all 3 surgeries and he is SO nice. He's only had 3 deaths in 7500 WLS, and that made me feel pretty good! DH went with me and we both agree that the sleeve is still the preferred surgery, but if our insurance just totally refuses to do it then gastric bypass is what I'll go with. Now I'm waiting to see what the insurance ladies tell me about my insurance coverage! I'm ready to get this ball rolling!!

Love this quote.....

"There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream." ~Author Unknown

What a blessing...

I've struggled over the last 3 years whether WLS was the "Christian" thing to do. I felt like I was being lazy and just not trying hard enough to lose the weight. I don't feel that way anymore. I'm not lazy....I've done my best to lose this extra weight and EVERY time it comes back and more. I would never dream of telling a breast cancer patient they shouldn't have a mastectomy before radiation and chemo! Why would I think that removing part of a stomach that has been stretched out so far that I can eat FAR too much food is less valid? My stomach is killing me just like that lump. The mental aspect of it all has to be addressed and I have to let Christ "renew my mind" in order to be sucessful, but I'll no longer feel ashamed or embarassed or guilty that I need help. A friend shared this song with me, the Gaither Trio performed it and I think it is perfect for this journey.....

In the things familiar we find security
Resisting all the changes that days and years can bring,
When God decides to lead you through an open door
Inviting you to walk in realms you've never known before.

Beyond the open door is a new and fresh anointing,
Hear the Spirit calling you to go.
Walk on through the door for the Lord will go before you
Into a greater power you've never known before.

So, here we go! Goodbye, Fat Me, and Hello, Healthy Me!

Another BFN and we're off on another adventure...

C28 has resulted in yet another BFN. So. I'm off on another adventure! This one is all about me. I'm starting proceedings to have weight loss surgery. The gastric sleeve to be more exact. It's major surgery and involves removing 75% of my stomach, permanently, but I really feel it's the BEST choice for me. I've thought and prayed about WLS for the last couple of years and more seriously over the last 6 months. Darling mentioned a week ago that he really wanted me to seriously consider it, he's ready for me to be healthy. So, our ttc journey is on hold. I'm PRAYING that after I lose the weight my cycles will come back and we'll have another baby, but for now we aren't ttc#3 anymore. This blog will become all about my journey to being healthy again! I couldn't be more excited!!! Right now, I weigh 290 lbs. The most I've EVER weighed and I can't live like this anymore!! It isn't living. I'm hurting ALL. THE. TIME. My osteoarthritis is really bad now that I've gotten so heavy. If I sit in one position too long my legs go numb. I don't have high blood pressure but I know it's coming. I don't have diabetes but I know that's inevitable too. I get out of breath doing the laundry or cleaning my kitchen. It's ridiculous!! Anyway, it'll probably happen in February. I have my first seminar on Nov. 16th! Pray for me!