I'm nervous.....

Ok, I need to be honest here.....I'm nervous. Really nervous. I took my last progesterone pill last night so I'm just waiting for AF to arrive & then it all starts! The pills, the hormones, the opks & pg tests, the u/s, the waiting, the wanting......am I really ready for this? Am I really ready for what this may mean? I could actually get pg, really & truly....am I really ready for another baby??? It's been 5 years since I had Peanut, will I remember what to do? LOL! I know this sounds crazy, but I've been getting things together to fill all my Rx & it just hit me.....I could be pg in January! whoa. After 4 years of begging the Lord for "just one more baby".....it could really happen & I'm wondering just how ready I am for it!